56k Words in 24 Days to End April 2020

When I started my novel on April 7 with a mere 785 words, I thought, “Okay, I’ve never written a novel in a month before, let alone LESS than a month, but here I go, challenge accepted.”

It’s the last day of April, and I hit my goal of 55k words for today. Not only that, I surpassed it and it 56k words.

56,120 words!!!!

I’m elated. If you told me one month ago I could write a novel in 24 days, I would have looked at you like you were crazy. And here I am! I feel like I was bulking, and now it’s time to cut, only for words and not for body composition.

I’m very excited to edit and polish this crazy piece of speed-written MG fantasy, along with starting the 31 Days of Asian Authors series! I am very much looking forward to sharing with you an exciting lineup!

YARC 2020 & Asian Readathon starting in May 2020

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One-third of the the year is already over, and I am very very late to the Year of the Asian 2020 reading challenge. But at least we’re allowed to join at any point during the year, so here I am! Going to aim for at least 50 books so I can get that cute Bengali Tiger badge. I will also be updating and adding my books to my YARC 2020 Goodreads shelf.

A selection of my hard copies of books

Pictured here in my pile:

  • In These Words manhua Vol 1, 2, 3 by Guilt Pleasure. They’re a NorCal-based Taiwanese author-illustrator two-women team, and I’ve had the pleasure of meeting them and purchasing their books in person at Fanime (which was sadly canceled this year). I can’t stop rereading them, and so that’s why they’re here.
  • The Warrior Woman by Maxine Hong Kingston. I bought this in college, and met the author herself.
  • Your Chinese Roots: The Overseas Chinese Story. I got this for free from a UC Berkeley library book giveaway day.
  • Kuan Yin. I also got this for free from a UC Berkeley library book giveaway day. Should learn more about the Goddess of Mercy!
  • Reflection: A Twisted Tale, by Elizabeth Lim. Best Disney Princess of ALL TIME going to Diyu? Written by a Chinese author? Sign me up!
  • The Ghost Bride, by Yangsze Choo. One of my top favorite books, and I want to reread it so my memory is refreshed before I binge the Netflix adaptation.
  • Chinese Myths and Folktales (Barnes & Noble Leatherbound Classic Collection)
  • The Art of War (Barnes & Noble Leatherbound Classic Collection)
  • The Bruce Lee Story, written by Bruce Lee’s wife, Linda Lee.

I’ll also be taking part in the May-specific Asian Readathon, in which there will be a #littlefiresreadalong on Twitter for Celeste Ng’s Little Fires Everywhere, which I thankfully was able to get off the waitlist for the ebook in time from my library.

My ebooks on my Kindle will include:

Speaking of May, I’ll be featuring and interviewing a great lineup of Asian writers for every 31 days! In this time when the world is not particularly kind to people of Asian descent, I’m super excited to have the honor to have spoken and connected with these fellow talented Asian writers, and I hope you’ll gain insight from their talent and writing experiences.

It’s going to be a great Asian Pacific American Heritage Month!

A few excerpts from “Women Who Run With the Wolves”

In this quarantine, one of the books I had the good fortune of checking out from the library before it was shut down is Women Who Run With the Wolves by Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estés. It’s a beautiful book full of womanly wisdom. If you enjoy fairy tale analysis and learning about indigenous cultures and empowering perspectives of womanhood, femininity, creativity, and body image, I highly highly recommend it.

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These are a few excerpts that have touched me. I thought I’d share them, and perhaps they might inspire you as they have inspired me.

“Fairy tales, myths, and stories provide understandings which sharpen our sight so that we can pick out and pick up the path left by the wildish nature. The instruction found in story reassures us that the path has not run out, but still leads women deeper, and more deeply still, into their own knowing. The tracks which we all are following are those of the Wild Women archetype, the innate instinctual Self.”
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“The word WILD here is not used in its modern pejorative sense, meaning out of control, but in its original sense, which means to live a natural life, one in which the criatura, creature, has innate integrity and healthy boundaries.”
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“A healthy woman is much like a wolf: robust, chock-full, strong life force, life-giving, territorially aware, inventive, loyal, roving. Yet, separation from the wildish nature causes a woman’s personality to become meager, thin, ghosty, spectral. We are not meant to be puny with frail hair and inability to leap up, inability to chase, to birth, to create a life. When women’s lives are in stasis, ennui, it is always time for the wildish woman to emerge; it is time for the creating function of the psyche to flood the delta.”
Page 12

“Often the creative life is slowed or stopped because something in the psyche has a very low opinion of us, and we are down there groveling at its feet instead of bopping it over the head and running free. In many cases what is required to aright the situation is that we take ourselves, or ideas, our art, far more seriously than we have done before. Due to wide breaks in matrilineal succor over many generations, this business of valuing one’s creative life–that is, valuing the beauteous and artful ideas and works which issue from the wildish soul–has become a perennial issue for women.”
Page 70

The shadow life occurs when writers, painters, dancers, mothers, seekers, mystics, students, or journeywomen stop writing, painting, dancing, mothering, looking, peering, learning, practicing. They might stop because whatever they just spent long with did not come out the way they had hoped, or did not receive the recognition it deserved, or countless other reasons. When the maker stops for whatever reason, the energy that naturally flows to her is diverted underground, where it surfaces whenever and wherever it can. Because a woman feels she cannot in daylight go full-bore at whatever it is she wants, she begins to lead a strange double life, pretending one thing in daylight hours, acting another way when she gets a chance.”
Page 237

“The cultural power OF the body is its beauty, but power IN the body is rare, for most have chased it away with their torture of or embarassment by the flesh.
It is in this light that the wildish woman can inquire into the numinosity of her own body and understand it not as a dumbbell that we are sentenced to carry for life, not as a beast of burden, pampered or otherwise, who carries us around for life, but a series of doors and dreams and poems through which we can learn and know all manner of things. In the wild psyche, body is understood as a being in its own right, one who loves us, depends on us, one to whom we are sometimes mother, and who sometimes is mother to us.”
Page 208

A woman must be careful to not allow overresponsibility (or overrespectability) to steal her necessary creative rests, riffs, and raptures. She simply must put her foot down and say no to half of what she believes she “should” be doing. Art is not meant to be created in stolen moments only.”
Page 308

“All women have personal stories as vast in scope and as powerful as the numen in fairy tales. But there is one kind of story in particular, which has to do with a woman’s secrets, especially those associated with shame; these contain some of the most important stories a woman can give her time to unraveling. For most women, these secret stories are embedded, not like jewels in a crown, but like black gravel under the skin of the soul.”
Page 374-5

“Secrets, like fairy tales and dreams, also follow the same energy patterns and structures as those found in drama. But secrets, instead of following the heroic structure, follow the tragic structure. The heroic drama begins with a heroine on a journey. Sometimes she is not psychologically awake. Sometimes she is too sweet and doesn’t perceive danger. Sometimes she has already been mistreated and makes the desperate moves of a capture creature. However she begins, the heroine eventually falls into the clutches of whatever or whoever, and is sorely tested. Then, through her wit and because she has people who care for her, she is freed and stands taller as a result.”
Page 376

Racism and Covid-19 Woke Me Up from Writing Coma

Has it really been 5 years since I last wrote a post? I’m honestly shocked it’s been so long.

Back in 2015, after I shelved the novel I spent pretty much half my undergrad working on, people asked me if I was still writing.

I never stopped. I still keep a diary on a daily basis, and also like writing Yelp reviews as a Yelp Elite, but I didn’t want to force myself to write just for the sake of writing. I came to realize that a lot of the fiction I wrote came from a negative place. They had a running theme of sad (or at best, bittersweet) endings, and I came to realize it was reflective of my own life. Sad endings were easier to write because happy endings are difficult. Not just to plan, plot, and write on paper, but to manifest in real life as well.

That was when I realized I needed to live a life. Not just one where I sat isolated in front of a monitor with characters and worlds that don’t exist. For a change, I wanted to be the one going on quests and slaying demons, not my characters.

So, what did I do in 5 years?

  • Graduated
  • Struggled with getting my footing in my day career (I was NOT one of those success stories of kids who got a job straight out of college)
  • Suffered a crazy quarter-life crisis that lasted roughly five years in which I constantly questioned why I was a failure of an adult
  • Cosplayed. A LOT. Spent many sleepless nights sewing and building costumes, won awards, went to conventions, guested at events, arranged many photoshoots, went on a couple of paid gigs with T-Mobile, and was a featured designer at the Katuscon 2020 Met Gala.
  • Went to healthcare school, got a phlebotomy certificate, and the school went bankrupt before I could get my medical assistant certificate, figured out healthcare wasn’t for me after working in a couple of hospitals and spending a bucketload of money out-of-pocket that took three years for the government to return to me.
  • Worked for a few different day jobs (and am very happy with my current company)
  • Traveled (Portland, NYC, Maryland, Washington DC, Los Angeles, Vegas, England, Taiwan)
  • Acted (I’m in the video game Journey of the Scroll by Tofu Sheets Visual, among other indie projects, been in indie films, and I perform improv with Pan Theater)
  • Accomplished a lot of my fitness goals (reached my weight goal that I had been told all my life was impossible! Deadlifted 160 lbs! Did 12 pull ups! Gained a 4-pack, and am on my way to a 6-pack!)
  • Celebrated my 4-year anniversary with my boyfriend.

Literally two days after my boyfriend and I celebrated our anniversary, shelter-in-place was mandated in the Bay Area. I’m pretty introverted to begin with, so working from home and staying home all day every day has been nice. However, I’ve been disgusted with the rampant racism against Asian Americans, and have been too terrified to leave my house unless if it’s for groceries.

One of my comforts during shelter-in-place is turning to some of my favorite books I grew up reading, particularly between ages 9 to 12. I thought to myself, “What if I wrote a middle-grade book capturing an Asian-American experience living through Covid-19 in the SF Bay Area?”

Boom. Add Chinese fantasy and mythology to the mix, and…I’m back to writing.

Despite people saying, “Don’t write a pandemic novel, everyone and their mother are just going to write them, heaven help the agents who are going to be flooded with pandemic manuscripts in the upcoming months,” if I can write something that will resonate with Asian-American kids living through this era, bring them comfort, joy, and hope, something that they’ll pick up again in their adult years just as I have with my favorites growing up, then I’ll have succeeded.

So I’ve woken up from my writing coma.

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A visual summary of the past 5 years, 2015-2020

Wax & Wane Published Today!

Wax & Wane: A Gathering of Witch Tales from Nosetouch Press is released today! It’s now available for order through Amazon.

My spotlight with Nosetouch Press was featured on their website yesterday. I can’t wait to get my hands on a hardcopy of my contributor copy when it arrives. I’ll be doing a longer blog post once I receive it.

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Wax & Wane Pre-Order!

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What a wonderful way to end 2015 and start 2016! Back on November 30, I submitted my fantasy short story, “Vial With Her Cure,” to Nosetouch Press. Literally one day later, on December 1, my story was accepted by the editors, D.T. Neal and Christine M. Scott! Fastest acceptance ever. I was so giddy!

Getting work published always feels amazing, and the sensation is further enhanced when your work gets published in a book with a BEAUTIFUL cover! Just look at this cover. I think this is the prettiest-looking anthology I’ve been in yet!

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And this hardcover! Wow, I am in love. Even though I get a complimentary paperback copy, I think I’ll just snag a copy of the hardcover for myself. 🙂

Just updated my Twitter cover photo too, to show off the beautiful cover artwork even more.

Wax & Wane is currently available for Pre-Order from Amazon, and will be available in hardcover, paperback, and ebook.

Also, Nosetouch is seeking patrons. If you love speculative fiction, I suggest checking out their Patreon page.

To end this post on a non-writing-related subject, here’s a photo of some of the fabrics from my Samurai Jack genderbent cosplay, which I just started working on this past week, and am hoping to finish in time for AOD (Animation on Display) in February.

How is your 2016 starting out? 🙂

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Halloween 2015

Autumn and winter are my two favorite seasons of the year. I love the cooling weather, the changing of leaves, the pumpkin treats that are in season, the togetherness that is fostered among families as the holidays draw closer, and dressing up for Halloween! Usually, something in the autumn atmosphere inspires me when I’m working on creative projects. Admittedly, I would enjoy this time of the year much more if I wasn’t bogged with exams to worry about.

Studying in my Jack Skellington robe.
Studying in my Jack Skellington robe.

*sigh* It’s been difficult to write lately with all the stress. Ever get that feeling of all these ideas building up in you, but everything comes out as garbage when you try to write or type things down? At tonight’s Halloween party, where everyone told a spooky story, I dressed up in my Doll cosplay (100% sewed by myself!) from Black Butler, and read aloud an excerpt from my copy of Yangsze Choo’s The Ghost Bride.

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Me reading “The Ghost Bride,” by Yangsze Choo

In non-writerly news, was just published in the Halloween issue of PUMP Magazine. The makeup and styling was all by me. I bought the Putumayo dress when I was in Harajuku two years ago, sewed the bow, and bought the voodoo doll pincushion from Etsy.

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Photography by Lauren Wilkinson

Hope you all had a Happy Halloween!

“Corvidae” Anthology Review

Corvids are fascinating creatures. My favorite birds, in fact. I’ve looked forward to reading “Corvidae” ever since editor Rhonda Parrish put out a submission call, and it did not disappoint. I really enjoyed that all stories dealt with the supernatural and folkloric aspect of the corvidae, and that each story was distinct in terms of characters, setting, and story. Here are some of my favorite stories, in the order they appear in the anthology:

Whistles and Trills by Kat Otis

Set during an alternative version of World War II, the main character Morgaine survives an airplane crash in the alps, where she’s in danger of coming face-to-face with the Nazi allies, the ice giants, or as Otis calls them, the Frost Chieftaincies. Morgaine encounters a curious Chough who has motives she’s initially unaware of, and the story ends with a victorious hope.

The Valravn by Megan Fennell

On a stormy night in a little cabin in a Medieval forest, Klara and her mother receive a mysterious visitor at their doorstep. He is a storyteller named Rikard the Bard, and despite Klara’s fascination with him, her mother’s hesitation to provide him shelter from the storm is an omen of the bard’s true nature.

Visiting Hours by Michael S. Pack

Even set in a hospital in contemporary times, Pack manages to weave in folkloric magic in times of grief when the main character, Lorraine, is mourning for the impending death of her terminally ill son. A raven appears as a recurring character, and the grandmother of one of the young patients tells Lorraine that ravens come for everyone, frightening Lorraine, especially with the open-ended conclusion to the story.

Raven No More by Adria Laycraft

Running away from abusive boyfriend, Sandra runs away into the wilderness and encounters a trickster raven who, at her impulsive request, changes her into a raven. Nuu-Chah-Nulth culture is featured prominently, for when Sandra realizes that she hasn’t seen the last of her abusive ex, in her attempts to turn back into human, she becomes a white raven, a harbinger of the end of the world. I appreciate learning Nuu-Chah-Nulth folklore, and Sandra’s raven tattoo in her human form is a powerful and symbolic touch.

The Tell-Tale Heart of Existence by Michael M. Rader

In this very captivating (and morbidly hilarious!) twist on Edgar Allan Poe’s Tell-Tale Heart, a PhD student’s thesis was rejected by the thesis committee, inciting him to carry out his revenge by targeting his adviser, Dr. Dupain. Feeling that Dr. Dupain was a bastard who had exploited said PhD student’s best years, he sets out to kill the old man, only to face quite a surprising twist that I didn’t expect. The narrator’s language, mimicking the cadence of Poe’s tale, is thoroughly engaging until the final sentence of this dark tale.

Sanctuary by Laura VanArendonk Baugh

Sophie, a wildlife rehabilitator, narrowly misses hitting an injured crow with her car. She takes in the crow, Annabel, and trains her for a research project with the hopes that the research will earn her and her rehabilitation center a grant cash prize. While working on her research, a mysterious young man named Jun, who had saved Annabel from Sophie’s car, appears at odd hours to help out with her research. However, it seems that no one else aside from Sophie and Annabel is aware of Jun’s existence. The growing friendship between Sophie and Jun was very intriguing, and the shocking ending makes me look forward to reading the follow-up to this story in Corvidae‘s companion anthology Scarecrow.

Postcards from the Abyss by Jane Yolen

A beautiful poem on grieving the passing of loved ones and connecting with them with memories and stories. Corvids are featured as agents passing between the world of the living and the dead.

Flight by Angela Slatter

This enchanting fairy tale was a great way to end this anthology. Princess Emer finds herself transforming into a raven against her will, due to the curse of her aunt, the Black Bride. When she finds herself a captive of the Black Bride, her mother, the White Bride, trades herself for Emer’s freedom, and it is up to Emer to save her mother with the aid of a talking raven named Bertok.